Running over the same old ground…

For those who know where to look, my stories are sprinkled over this blog. You should be able to reconstruct everything that’s happened by reading it all the right way. I’d love to tell the entire story as it is, clearly, without vagueness. But to protect other people’s privacy and my own, I can’t do that. Sometimes, when randomly rereading parts of my diary, I realize how strangely interwoven everything can be, and how weird overall. You wouldn’t make this kind of things up, I believe. Especially I wouldn’t, because no one died ;).

And now I’m at home while I should be in class, because I’ve got a headache (ouch ouch), and I’m thinking about my crappy life. No, that’s not true. My life isn’t crappy. Though we’re running over the same old ground again. But I’m smarter now and I know what to expect – nothing. It’s a lot easier to be happy when you are sure about what to expect.Β No more begging for what’s lost, I once wrote. Soon everything will be just like before… Unless life decides to fool me again. I know I won’t resist, but all along, what does it matter?

I will get rid of the headache and somehow, everything will turn out right. Maybe it’s all come to an end already. The future will tell, and perhaps one day I’ll tell you the entire story.

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  1. You’re pregnant? Congratulations!

    Hope the headache goes away.

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  2. Le Clown

     /  February 25, 2013

    A,
    Was this a Conor Oberst song,or did I get lost?
    Le Clown

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  3. Another old classic song “What comes around goes around”. Things seem to go the way they’re supposed to in the end. Hang in there!

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  4. When I get maudlin, I listen to TIme by Pink Floyd πŸ™‚

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  5. Ah yes, the melancholies. This too shall pass. Don’t let the same ground get to you. At some point (at least for me), it passes into your lexicon of stories and experience, and you get to move on from there.
    And to help the melancholies on their way, enjoy a ridiculously foolish song with a great hook.

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    • If there’s one cure for worrying and wondering about life, it’s definitely this video! Hehehe :).
      Certainly. This story of mine may already have become something from the past. Maybe it’s already over and done with. I can deal with it because I know it will and has to happen…

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  6. Now that Pink Floyd is on this blog I can officially claim that you and I are one. Just in different dimensions, or something sci-fi like that.
    This is starting to frighten me too.
    You probably gathered that PF is my fave band ever. Like ever. I was fortunate enough to attend their concert two years ago, it was The Wall πŸ™‚

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  7. I’m back! Possibly you’re on your way out though…

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