So, what are you studying?
Slavic studies. (Note: in Dutch it sounds more like ‘Slavistics’.)
Statistics? Really?
No, Slavic studies.
What is that? (with a confused voice)
Russian, Polish, the history, literature and so on.
Why have you chosen that? (with a ‘I don’t get it’ voice)
Because I thought it would be boring and nothing for me at all, that’s why.
What will you then, as a job? (with a ‘I don’t understand’ voice)
You guys always make it sound as if these are the most worthless studies one could do. There are many options, they told us, but they never really gave examples. But there is a future for us. Don’t look like you don’t believe it.
Say something in Russian!
Вы всегда хотите что мы говорим ‘что-то’ по русски…
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A few weeks ago, I had a little crisis about my studies. I had been doing so many exercices I didn’t feel capable of, it was exhausting. And then it seemed as if something snapped. Last year I was so convinced that this was perfect for me, but now I wouldn’t understand that feeling anymore. It was tiring, boring, hard. Why was I doing this again? The point is that there is no real ultimate reason for me to do this. I don’t have a Polish granny nor am I born in Russia. It just sounded good. But is that enough? Plus: this year I’ve got some courses that aren’t really my cup of tea. IT for example. Drama. Just drama.
But by now I start to be proud of this again. It starts to be an important side of me again. Somehow, the snapped thing got together again. I’m not as convinced as I used to be, but at least I don’t tend to feel something closer to hate anymore. Which is good, I wouldn’t know what to do if not this… But it will be a hard, hard year. I seriously need to work a lot harder.
I’m too tired now though, because luckily I can still go out as well every now and then…
No Blog Intended 
Christina's Words
/ December 4, 2013Glad you’re feeling proud again, I’m proud FOR you!
Hope you get to rest up some and rejuvenate.
Statistics? Haha… Be glad it’s not! 🙂
No Blog Intended
/ December 4, 2013Oh Christy, that’s so kind of you :).
Yeah, statistics, that would be total horror and drama for sure!
Christina's Words
/ December 4, 2013🙂
Michael Cargill
/ December 4, 2013It’s important to remember that education doesn’t exist purely to gear you up for a job. Society benefits by allowing people to pursue and study things that interest them – if everyone was a lawyer or an accountant, the world would be a shitty place.
It’s natural to have ups and downs but it seems you’re over the hump, so hopefully you can get back to enjoying stuff again.
No Blog Intended
/ December 4, 2013Exaclty. I also think it’s weird that they keep on asking why on earth we’re doing slavic studies… Why don’t they ever ask a law student or a medicine student the same thing?
I believe I am indeed, and I hope the same thing…
Lily
/ December 4, 2013The stranger a subject is, the cooler it is! Be proud of your obscure major. In the states everyone makes fun of philosophy majors because it seems like something you would never use. But I still have a lot of respect for people who take those classes. Super cool.
No Blog Intended
/ December 5, 2013Agreed! I am always the person who wants to be different, and now I certainly am ;).
People judge to easily. And as long as you do something you like, I think it’s the greatest thing!
El Guapo
/ December 5, 2013Happy to hear you’ve found your way back to enjoying it!
So when the next person asks why you’re studying that, will you put on a shocked expression and answer “Why are you NOT?!?” 😉
No Blog Intended
/ December 5, 2013Hahaha, that’s a great idea! I’ll do that :D.
RO
/ December 5, 2013Good of you to find your way again 🙂 All things we do in life can, at some point, seem a bit dull/hard/worthless but in the end, if you’ve really, consciously chosen for something, you will find out why you made this choice sooner or later.
Good luck with this year, may the new year bring some good things to you!
No Blog Intended
/ December 5, 2013It’s inevitable to do stuff you don’t like, I know… But when you’ve chosen something, people consider it ‘your fault’ when it turns out to be disappointing…
But by now I have accepted it, and hopefully everything will be okay now :).
Edita
/ December 5, 2013Ummm… hello? Government translator job application incoming!
it’s very easy to get confused and forget why you are doing the things you are doing. The worst thing? There isn’t actually any advice anyone can give that would help. But what you can do is sit down in a new environment (i.e. travel somewhere) and think it over. Distancing yourself from a situation always gives you perspective.
No Blog Intended
/ December 5, 2013Aw yeah, if I could do that…! No more money troubles I guess :).
I’m not very sure what I want to do, but it would be cool to wrok for the Mariisnky or something opera – ballet related. We’ll see where I’ll get!
You are right about the distance. After my friend visited me for a few days, I felt motivated again and I had to admit to myself I still like these studies, so that was great :).
editalozovska
/ December 9, 2013That’s the spirit! Its easy to be caught up in doubt. And that is the most self-destructing feeling. This emotion is portrayed very well in the movie called “Doubt”, do watch it, if you haven’t. The final scene just says it all! x
No Blog Intended
/ December 9, 2013I’ll try to find it somewhere! That movie is probably made for me, considering how many doubts I have :D.
SoundOfLaughter
/ December 6, 2013I took two years of Polish in college and my grandparents were Polish and spoke it around the house so that was my motivation. Polish is a pretty difficult language to learn so those classes were pretty hard. Glad to hear you have found your path again.
No Blog Intended
/ December 7, 2013Well yeah, that’s of course a good motivation! It is difficult, but we’ve got great teachers, which makes it a whole lot easier :).
Thanks for your comment!
BEAUTYCALYPSE
/ December 8, 2013пусть говорят…. )))
No Blog Intended
/ December 8, 2013Я не знала чтo ты из Москвы! Так здорово! Ты всегда можешь сказать что-то по руссски здесь ;).
BEAUTYCALYPSE
/ December 8, 2013wow, ты классно пишешь ))) обязательно буду оставлять комментарии на русском 😉
No Blog Intended
/ December 8, 2013Спасибо, я краснею… Будет бы хорошо дла меня! Ты ещё живёшь в Москве?
(Я не знала что ты русская потому что ты так свободно пишешь по английски!)
BEAUTYCALYPSE
/ December 8, 2013я уже давно живу в германии, а последние 12 лет в берлине ))) и говорю по-немецки, по-английски и по-французски.
No Blog Intended
/ December 8, 2013Берлин мне очень нравился когда я была там на канилулы! Я думаю что это здорово там жить.
Tous ces langues, c’est très impressionant! 😉
BEAUTYCALYPSE
/ December 8, 2013et tellement pratique!
No Blog Intended
/ December 8, 2013Тоже!
Почему ты знаешь так много языков? Должно быть ты любишь учить языки?
BEAUTYCALYPSE
/ December 8, 2013кстати да ))) подумываю насчет японского, а вот итальянский с испанским начинала учить, но не хватало времени… и интереса, если честно, тоже ))
No Blog Intended
/ December 9, 2013Конечно… 🙂 А можно всегда стараться учить нидерландский язык тоже! Очень интересно ;).