The enemy and I

It’s a love/hate relationship. We’ve learned how to get along with each other. I know how to push your buttons. It seemed like we had a kind of deal: you accept me, I accept you. And I apologize for not always knowing what’s wrong, for not always understanding you. I really wish I could, you know. We could have the greatest time if only we could figure out how to get along and stuff. If only I could fathom you…

Because I’m using you without knowing what is going on on the inside. I’m using you every day, getting you on and off whenever I need you. Do you need me? I don’t know actually. I assume you don’t. I assume you’re here because you are the one who knows all these things about me, who gets me to places. Whenever I need advice, or even when I want to know when the library’s open, you can help. I’m very grateful for that.

But why is it so hard to really get along with you? Why do we always crash when I really need you? Is it me letting you down, or you letting me down? I can’t tell anymore. Our situation has improved a lot already, we’ve come from nothing to this. But it’s still not really what it should be. There’s still a lot of things that should be better… I want to be sure I can rely on you, I want to know more buttons I can push… I want to understand! And I want you to tell me what I do wrong. Sometimes I just sit here, baffled, not understanding what on earth went wrong. Can’t you just say what I should do in order to make it work? How hard can that be? You’re able to do so much, you know so much – why don’t you spread the wisdom? Share it with me. I beg you.

What’s going on?

In a few weeks I have an exam I’m eagerly (ahem) studying for. It’s an IT exam, and as you might know, computers will always be a struggle for me. By now I finally figured how to use the Internet, and Word perhaps. But overall I have a really small knowledge which won’t make me pass my exam this way. I do have hope that one day, my computer and I will be best friends who really understand each other. Until that day, I struggle and battle on. What else can I do?

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  1. I work in IT and I hate computers. Hopefully this will be of some comfort to you.

    Best of luck.

  2. I hope you do better on this test than you expect.
    If there’s anything specific you’re hung up on, drop me a line. I might be able to help out.
    (I work in IT too.)

    • Yeah well, I kinda gave up by now. But if I decide to pick it up again, and I get in trouble (which I will), you can expect some spamming from me!
      Thanks for wanting to help and happy holidays!

  3. Good luck! I hope you overcome your fears. You can do it πŸ™‚

  4. Good luck with your battle against the machines! πŸ˜‰

  5. Haha! At first I was like… woah, this is intense. Then I got wise like a riddling hobbit. Good luck with this! I can’t help you in the least…

    • Yay, at least someone was tricked by this! Thanks for being the good reader ;).
      And thanks for the support. I’ll guess I’ll make something of it… Somehow…

  6. Smash a couple computer to send the rest a message.

  7. I love my computers, but only when they work! lol
    Have a Happy Christmas lovely one! πŸ™‚ x You and others were some of the best bits of my 2013!

    • Yep, I’ve got the same feeling towards them! πŸ™‚
      For you the same thing, Eejit! Thanks for becoming a great blogfriend – you rock!! πŸ˜€

  8. LOL I have never understood how is it that you being so young are not into electronic gadgets and stuff. You remind me of the says when assignments had to be done on a typewriter. Ancient history, I know.

    Happy holidays!

    • Hah, I’d probably be much happier with a typewriter! πŸ˜‰
      No, that’s not true. I’m finally okay woth a computer, but when I have to do more advanced stuff than just writing, I tend to fail. I seem to lack the ‘electronic’ feel…

      Happy holidays for you as well!

  9. Good luck on the test!! I love computers, but that’s probably because I don’t work with them. I also don’t know much about them!!!

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