To Dance Or Not To Be

One of the first things most people get to know about me, is that I am a dancer. It’s one of those most present, obvious things about me, apparently. NBI the dancer.

But I’m not taking dance classes anymore. I didn’t enroll myself, because of a few reasons. The first one, obviously, is that I believed I would be in Russia now. When I decided to stay, I only had one more week to enroll myself. But I also suddenly had to start my life in Belgium over again. The second reason is that I didn’t want to pay for a whole year while I could only attend classes for three months. And last but not least, they would be preparing a show, which I couldn’t take part in, because I will be abroad then.

Long story short, I’m currently not taking dance classes.

But how I miss it, how I miss it… Mentally, physically, I think I underestimated this. I don’t mind not getting up at 8 every Saturday morning, but that’s about the only bright side so far. I just really want to dance, I always feel the need to dance, but now I lack the space to properly do exercises. Every Saturday, every, every Saturday evening, I do dance in my room at home. It’s something. There is not enough space to do all the fun stuff though. No real jumping, no going from one side to the other while turning, no such things are possible.

There is also no good teacher who makes up new exercises, who corrects me, who makes good choreographies. What I do every Saturday evening is mainly to do something physical, to stay in shape a little, to not lose my technique and flexibility. Also, I do it to move. I still feel good when doing ballet exercises, even when space is limited.

I’ve come to realize that dancing makes me deal with things as well. It’s a form of meditation. You think of the music, the steps, all that, but you don’t really get the chance to think of the assignment you still have to do, that one thing you said to that person, what you still have to buy for dinner. And sometimes, when you’re really struggling with some issue, it helps to dance it out a little. Therapy in the dance studio. Yes, I know I’m getting cheesy.

I don’t just miss it mentally though. I’ve never had back aches so often, and I think I now where they come from : I move too little. The best cure for back aches so far for me, is to use my back, bend it, dance. It helps. Backs should be used often, and when you sit for too long, it will protest.

So you see, I’m made to dance. I’m not made to dance professionally, but my body screams for moving when I hear music. I still can’t go from point A to B without throwing in some arm movements or kicking legs. That’s what I’m made from still, that’s what I’m made for still. So I can’t wait to take dance classes again, to be in a dance studio again and to move, and to sweat, to feel elegant again.

I don’t want it. I just need it.

(To breathe, to feel, to know I’m alive – bonuspoint for anyone getting that Tool reference.)

Of course, no post on dance without a good video. This dance duet is so powerful, so beautiful, so heart crushing and impressive (all those lifts!). Warning: may beat you up mentally. But trust me, it’s worth it.


Is there something you cannot live without? What defines you for most people? Do you love dance? I promise not to hate on you if you don’t, however hard that will be 😉

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  1. NotAPunkRocker

     /  November 13, 2014

    I can definitely see where it is meditative.

    “What defines you for most people?” –That is an interesting question. I am really not sure, I’ll have to think on that some more.

    • Feel free to come back when you know what it is 🙂 I find that interesting, because often it’s just a small part of you that people know really quickly – but what is it then? Very intruiging.

  2. There aren’t any sort of workshops, or other shorter-term classes you can take or go to to at least get some dancing in? maybe there’s a group on or something.

    There are all sorts of things I can’t live without. Sometimes, I even get to do them!

    • There are, but often at moments when it doesn’t fit for me. I’ve realized too late that I should have been looking for some class… But I’m sure it will be a priority as soon as I arrive in Poland 🙂

      And what are those things then? You made me curious 🙂

  3. Those dancers are beyond words. Thank you. As to your dilemma – it’s so hard when something is like oxygen starvation when you can’t do it. For me it is rowing. I was an international and although I only compete occasionally now I used to take my single scull out every weekend and whenever I was asked would make up a pair or a four. Here I don’t have a place for my boat and there are no rowing clubs. It makes me literally heavy inside not to be out on the water. But you will dance again and I will glide on the water again. Until then – you have my sympathy 😦

    • Glad you liked it!
      So you know exactly how I feel then – sorry to hear that 😦 Is there any prospect of getting to row again soon?

      • I’m due to be in Boston for a few months at some point next year – good rowing on The Charles 🙂 … once we are settled here in our own place we will ship my boat and I will be making a nuisance of myself on the volcanic lakes which will be interesting!!

      • Oh, good thing you know you will get a chance soon! Then you’ve got something to look forward to – a lot 😀 I’m sure we’ll get some posts on it at that point? 😉

      • Oh yes – I can bore for my country on rowing! And I really hope you dance soon … very soon 🙂

  4. Is there something you cannot live without? Coffeh.

    What defines you for most people? I haven’t the slightest clue.

    Do you love dance? Nope. I don’t enjoy it at all. Sorry…

    • Coffee 🙂 I’ve started to realize that I need my coffee at three everyday, or else I keep thinking about it until I finally get it. So for a part I know how you feel.

      As for the dancing, I don’t understand at all, but I’m doing my best not to spam you with video’s and explanations and everything to convince you… It’s hard, but I’ll accept it.

      I think 😉

  5. Awww, do go back to dancing, A! You will feel yourself again!
    There are way too many things I love that can’t live without, especially music! No life without that! x

  6. I can see why dance is meditative, too! That’s running for me. I can lose myself in a good run. And you like Tool!!! I love them. Saw them live once, and it was amazing.

    • Oh wow! That must have been amazing! I like Tool, but I by far don’t know all their songs. From time to time though, their music is perfect for moods you can’t describe yourself 🙂

  7. I can understand how you feel about dancing, ( I love it btw so you can’t hate on me.. :P)
    . Do you have any places where you can drop into a dance class until you can enroll into something long term?
    + I enjoyed watching the senata, they were meant to dance together.
    As for what I couldn’t live without….well that answer is ‘cheesy’.

    • Hurray, happy to hear you like dance and the serenata!
      For now I think it’s too late to still find a dance class, but in February I hope to start again 🙂

      ‘Cheesy’ as in cheesy things, or cheese? 😉

  8. You will loooooove Lublin – it is stunning for one – and my grandma was born in a city not too far from there (which now belongs to Ukraine) 😉

    • Haha, such coincidence! But good to hear once again that it’s such a nice city. I find it so exciting to know I’ll be living there soon 🙂


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