Waiting for my grades.
Waiting for the list of destinations we can go to.
Waiting for the confirmation that we’ve been accepted.
Waiting for my grades.
Waiting for the invitation.
Waiting for the visa.

Everything I did this year was to make sure I could go studying abroad the coming year. I worked very hard, because good grades are required. I have done what I could to make sure everything would turn out fine. To make sure that I could leave at the end of August.

The end of August is getting pretty close, and I still have nothing, no invitation, no visa, no confirmation of the host family. With every passing day I start to think more and more that I’m not going anywhere. Normally I’ve got at least four months Poland that’s safe, but the first semester is still one big black hole. And that scares me. There are only three people who want to stay, two of which are Polish. So if I have to stay, I’ll have classes with just two people sometimes. Isn’t that the most terrifying tought? For me it is.

I have been doing everything I could to make this work. I even send an e-mail to the university in Russia, to which they responded that they don’t have any information about us. And as long as they don’t send the invitation, we can’t get a visa and we can’t go.

That’s what we’re heading at. We can’t go. Though I have done what I could. Though everyone else is going. Though my entire life has been constructed to leave.

I’m afraid.

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  1. Fingers crossed you get the invitation soon!!

  2. Oh dear.

    So what happens if your grades are good but the invitation and visa stuff doesn’t come through…?

    • Then you have to stay. But when Russia doesn’t work out, I’m going to try to get a year Poland, hopefully that will work…. But I want to go to Russia so badly as well.

  3. If they’ve lost their minds and don’t invite you, can you take a semester off and go there on your own for a few months?

    • Theoretically speaking I probably could, but then I have to make up for the lost semester some time. Plus: our language classes keep going the entire year, so if you miss the first semester, you cannot go to the second one (for the language classes) and then you miss an entire year of those classes.

      It’s much of a loss-loss situation instead of a win-win here.

  4. The Dancing Rider

     /  August 8, 2014

    I hope something changes and you can! I will still keep everything crossed for you!

    • Thank you 🙂 It’s good to share this and to see how all of you are hoping the best for me. Makes it somewhat less dramatic!

  5. runningonsober

     /  August 9, 2014

    Awww man, I hate waiting, especially when there’s no more you can do. I’m thinking of you–hope you get some good news very soon!

    • Yes, exactly. If only I coudl do anything about it, at least I would know what was going on.
      Thank you, I’ll keep everyone updated!

  6. NotAPunkRocker

     /  August 9, 2014

    Fingers crossed that something works out, ideally this semester but if not, then definitely next. ((hugs))

  7. Waiting is the worst! It’s purgatory … not a yes, not a no. I hope your ‘yes’ comes soon and everything else falls into place quickly.

  8. I’ve found lately, that when I worry about things they just have this way of working out, sometimes to seamlessly that I don’t even realise. I hope the same goes for you wee chum and it all works out for you x

  9. Often I find that purgatory is pretty synonymous to hell.
    I hope you get your asnwers asap, A!

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