Because we will go to heaven

When I was in primary school, we were obliged to pray before and after our lunch. I don’t think any of us really understood what we did, or why were doing that. The little prayer we had to say contained ancient Dutch words which I didn’t fully understand until I was 11 or something. It was just something we did because we had to, and we were young to wonder why we were doing that.

I went to a Catholic school, in case you actually wonder why we had to pray. There are still many Catholic schools up here, but it doesn’t mean anything more than having ‘Religion’ as a course and perhaps praying every now and then. I wouldn’t even able to do a full prayer now… But I also didn’t do my Confirmation. I won’t be going to heaven.

The point is, nowadays religion has become exactly that prayer for me : it’s obligatory, you don’t ask questions, but you also don’t really know what you are doing and why. Don’t get me wrong, I respect faith, but religion is different. Religion means rules and sin and judgement. Religion means someone will tell you what God wants you to do in order to get a place in heaven. Religion means you are always wrong somehow…

There is a now girl in my student house now, who goes to church and bible study every week. Though I know I shouldn’t judge, I seriously can’t get my head around that. Faith I can understand somehow (though I can’t believe in a god), but how do you accept people telling you the same stuff over and over again? ‘You’re a sinner who should do good’? Of course you could say ‘how can you go to dance class every week?’ and I would have to admit it’s something I’m passionate about, so perhaps she is passionate about God.
But honestly, when I heard this, it sounded more as if she was raised in the conviction that she had to go to church and bible study. She was brought up in this kind of family. Did she even have a choice? Does she want that choice?

I know I wouldn’t be able to just swallow and nod. I don’t like authority. I mean, authority can be good, but it’s a typical trait in my family to not accept people telling us we’re wrong when we’re not. You can be just wrong, or you can have someone saying you’re wrong when you’re convinced you’re doing something good. We’re not the kind of people who just bow and change their way. We are the kind of people that will say ‘I’ think I’m right’. Perhaps that’s one of the reasons I am just unable to go to church.I like churches, but not the mass. Everyone is sitting there on these uncomfortable chairs and they hear someone say ‘you’re born a sinner!’ and they think ‘yes, I’m a sinner’ and they pray and they trust that they will go to heaven.

How? How can you be convinced of the fact you were born a sinner? How can you stand someone telling you you were a bad person when you were born? And how can you believe a prayer will make up for everything? Religion can’t undo what you have done, whatever the rules say. The rules are just there to make you comply. Every and each rule is made to silence the people. If it’s not made for that, it’s certainly used that way.  Did you know that the celibacy is the result of the Church fearing that her wealth would be divided over the children of the priests? There’s a reason behind every rule, and most of them aren’t made for your peace.

Most people who claim to be the closest to God, are the people who are the biggest assholes. They are the ones who have always claimed to know what God wants. They are the ones who made up the rules. They are the ones silencing you. But it’s okay. A few confessions and prayers and everything will be allright. After all, God will forgive them, right? The fact that they are the least forgiving doesn’t matter. They shouldn’t be as forgiving to sinners. Why would they? They are the people who are right and good. They are allowed to judge.

Because they will go to heaven.

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  1. RO

     /  October 26, 2013

    Very sensitive subject that I don’t really dare to write about.. kudos for you doing it!
    I think religion is something that is very personal. I don’t see myself as an active believer, but my grandparents are. We used to sing a religious song before we went to bed when we stayed over at their place. I never really got this, for me, it wasn’t important.
    Religion has so many negative sides that I usually consider myself an atheist. But, when I am in a church I am usually filled with respect and I can also understand why people might go there for their peace of mind..

    • I do like churches as well, and I understand the people who want to believe there’s something more. Faith can be a great comfort and support when you need it. That’s why I want to point out the difference between faith and religion. Faith is a very personal thing I will repsect and try to understand, but religion is dogma’s and silence to me.

      • RO

         /  October 26, 2013

        I didn’t want to criticize, I actually wanted to point out that I agree with you 🙂 Faith and religion are two very different things, as faith can be put into many other things than religion alone..

      • Just wanted to be sure I didn’t sound offensive! Great to have someone agreeing with me ;).
        And hey, apparently I’m going to have pointe class this year, me is happy :D.

      • RO

         /  October 26, 2013

        Woooohooo really?? That’s awesome!! Please let me know when you’re sure and of course I want to know all about it! Are you going to buy pointe shoes soon??

      • Yeah, I’m going to Antwerp in a week probably, to buy them. I’ve had a pair before, but they no longer fit.
        I’m excited indeed, but also a bit frightened because of the circumsances…
        But that’s a long story. It will be cool anyways :). I’ll keep you updated, fellow ballet dancer!

  2. I’m an atheist myself and I find religion somewhat baffling to be honest.

    I don’t think it’s something that will disappear entirely but it’s influence and importance will certainly decline further than it has already.

  3. I think church is often brought down or has bad connotations simply because of the people. I don’t like the thought of a scary wrathful God, ready to punish us. I think of him as a loving father that is proud of me no matter what. No matter how many mistakes I make in life.

    I think when people make religion scary, it’s the wrong thing to do. I also hate self-righteous people who think they’re the best and follow all the rules and make others feel bad. Those kind of people don’t make me want to go to church either. But if someone is truly diligent at going to church and has faith even though it’s not “the cool thing” then I think that’s pretty rad! She might be blindly following her parents, but she could have a deep, strong faith which is hard to find these days.

    • Of course this is written by an atheist girl, so that’s why I had the idea she was sort of pushed into this role before she had the choice… But as you, it might be the other way around, and that’s great for her!

      A loving father is so much nicer to believe in! For a religion that claims to be good and forgiving I find this image way more fitting.
      And look, you’re one of the religious people that don’t think going to church is a free ticket to heaven, that’s nice! Because I do think it might be an extra push for certain people to be good. But unfortunately it’s absued so often…

  4. This was a true testament to how mature you are getting. Religion is a philosophy. Faith should not be explained and people try too hard to do it. I’d try expounding more but it would end with me saying I’m not really sure anyway.

    • I take that as a compliment!
      As you say, faith should not be explained. How can you explain something that is so personal and different for everyone?
      You can never be sure about the truth. But that means you should also not pretend to be true, like many people do…

  5. I enjoyed your thoughtful post. I’m a Christ-follower, and for me religion has become a circus – craziness! I hate religion and stopped going to church quite a few years back. Once a month we share a meal and drinks with some friends and call it Beer and Bible study (B&BS for short ;)), though it’s 50/50 beer & wine. If you ever get the chance, check out Anthony de Mello. He has some stuff on youtube. He’s very interesting. Even though he was a Catholic priest, he was WAY outside the box. You might like some of what he has to say. I seriously doubt it’s anything like what you ever heard in church.

    Take care!

    P.S. By the way, EVERYONE’S going to heaven. 😀

    • Hi there, Judah First!
      Apparently you are on of the cool Christians, isn’t it? I like your way of Bible studies. I believe some drinks (either it’s beer or wine) may imprive your understanding of those cryptical texts in the Bible! I will check him out as soon as I have more than 5 minutes to do so, but it sound great – outside the box there’s much more fun than inside ;).

      Ain’t that great news! I hope to see you again somewhat sooner though ;).

  6. Coming from Northern Ireland I’m not a fan of discussing religion. I do however believe in God because I’ve had help when I really needed it. I don’t like it being forced on me though, or being told I have to do this and that, so I’m probably not going to heaven either 😦

    • Yeah, I understand that…
      With the image they draw of God I can’t really believe he would force all those rules upon us either way. If he exists he’s probably not as human as we often think. (More like a something we can’t imagine I think.)

      Hey, don’t worry, hell is gonna be a whole lot of fun if we all end up there :D.

  7. Reblogged this on oogenhand and commented:
    The right views about religion are very important.

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